HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,Jesus !! (kapan traktirrrr)

Thank you Godddd !! i love youuu !! i've done my school .first sem. my mom and dad said ' were proud of you dear. what you've done for your score. where do you wanna go for the holiday ?'
WAAA I LOVE YOU VERY BERRY CHERRY MUCHHH!!
my god. yesterday i was very very afraid, my heart won't stop beating. my God. cry. desp. stressssss. it was YESTERDAY.
and now, me SOOOO happy. i love my world. i love my score. i love school. ok ??? you hear it ?

I LOVE SCHOOL .

and esp. for the holiday.. thx for all friends. for the advice. heard my share. story cry. my home and school problems. is so manyyy. thx for all my God. i don't know hows without you all friends.

I LOVE YOU. I LOVE ALL. I LOVE MY DAY.

HAPPY HOLIDAYYYY !!! :)

I've only one question now friends.

HOW TO REDUCE NEGATIVE THINKING ?
and the answer isss : ... HARD.

Its like hard to change. Hard to think positive. always. the first think that appear in my brain .
Im afraid that can make everybody around me like 'haaaa?'
enel said that my ne-think is so WOW.

clara : ngmngin gua ya ? sbel ma gua ? marah ya ?
enel : ga ko clarrrr. tenang yaaa.
clara : srius nih ? gw kea hadoh sriusan ni nel.
enel : neting lo sih parah abis clar. hehe . akut lo . hehehe.

clara : ras (crita crita crita crita bzzzzt)
saras : hadoh clarrr. tenang lahh ga kea gitu jugaaa
clara : tapi ko gw mkirny gitu ya ?
saras : jangan neting claraaaa.. xp
clara : hadoh susah ya.

ci agnes : 'pm nya : senangnya sudah menonton. smoga semua orang mendapat balasannya atas perlakuannya ke gua'
ci agnes : hey
clara : hey you!
clara : ci, itu pm kenapa ? cici di bully?
ci agnes : ha di bully ?
clara : itu pm nya buat tmn2 cici yang nge bully ?
ci agnes : engga ko . itu buat tmn2 cici yang baik. yang jahat juga deh. kamu jahat ih yaaa. hehe
clara : hadoh sorry neting abis. parah parah
ci agnes : haha engga lahhh .

and with the other friends. im sorry ok??? now you know.

hadohhhhh TIRED maaannn . can you all help me ?

Mom, im sorry for everything i've done. I know all thats my fault. Selfish. lie. everything. Just try to understand mom. I'm just a kid. I'm not old enough for thinking about my future or my life. But i know that you love me mom. and I love you so much.
This is a little conv. me and mom : i love it soooo.

Me : mamiiiii (meluk mami dari belakang)
Mom : knp yangggg ?
Me : i love mami lohhh
Mom : i love you too
Me : ah boong kan mami ih suka ngomel-ngomel terus ama i ga sayang dong brarti
Mom : i ngomel kan because i love you dear. klo maminya ga ngomel tar kamu ga bener lagi mami yang pusing .
Me : iya deh makanyaaa jgn ngomel-ngomel mulu tar mami cepet tua loh.
Mom : iya dehhh :) kamunya juga jangan bandel nurut dong susah deh dibilangin (sambil kea senyum2 ahaaaa senangnyaaa)
Me : iya deh mamiiii . hehe . i love youuu

i love you, MOMMY !!!!!!! :)
jgn ngomel2 lagi yaaaaa. dan itu ada 4 hal mamiii okayyy ? ill try and you've to change ok xp

also my Friends, sorry to you. esp best friends. there're fight. backstabber. lie. and everything . problem at school. with my best friend, or friend, or teacher, and OTHERS. im so sorry. i'll try to be the best for you all. im tired ok? its hard to be positive thinking. Always negative at first. I'll try. And it has done like 10 %. Help me ok? theres something i want you all to know that i LOVE you .
and okay,

THX A LOT for you friendsss : (esp)
~ Ernielly ( thx a lottttt best. youre so WOW xp)
~ Tewe (thx for your advice. i've tried and its sooo OK.)
~ Boki (okay thx a lot yaaaww =P im sorry for everything, im just a kid okay ?)
~ Irvan ( for the 'problem' yesterday van. me so thx =P )
~ Saras ( you're the best man. huah youre 'psikolog bagiku'. try to + thinking. xp )
~ Tassha ( we've a lot of problem ok? and we've done it tass, its great! )
~ Marcia ( okay thx for the advice marrr. you're the best )

me so happy rite now. my world is like so wow and i love it very much. hello LOVE, goodbye DESPERATE.
You are all really2 my best best friends ily all :D

Labels: mommy best friends my lovely world

Hey you hey blog. Desp. Its me now. One day I was thinking that I can out from my home SHIT home. But I’m afraid. I don’t have a bravery for it. Ok I’m a courageous person. I always feel jealous if I saw a kids/ whatever can have a good connection with her/his mom. I didn’t have it since I was in junior high school. I don’t know why. My friend (im sorry ok?) has said that im so selfish. But, hey, you don’t understand man. He said that im not thank God for what I have. Its all material. Handphone, iPod, go abroad. I appreciate it. I’m happy for what I have. Now, I don’t want it all. I don’t want any material here. I just want the best connect with my mom. That’s all. I think its enough for me.

Now mom, I want you to know something that you don’t know. Its all about your bad side. Ok? And I want you to change it. Ive told you many time and it seems like you don’t care about it. And this is the list(s)

1. Im different from the other mom. So stop say that ‘your friends are more CLEVER than you. You have to be more clever that your friends. You can do it’. No mom. You don’t know where is my limit.

2. Stop want me to be perfect. I know you are the person like Mrs. Perfect but its not me. The person that can get 100 for the score, get A+ for her native speaker in her primary. Actually its not me anymore. Its for you mom. You are always think about you.

3. Now, im different. Im not the person that always can get the best score or be perfect like you. So, please UNDERSTAND me.

4. Don’t be so talkative mom, actually im bored. Don’t regard me as a child under 5 y.o please ? im 14 y.o now. Im a teenager. And please shut you mouth for a minute.
That’s all I want. Hard ? For you mom. For me its not difficult to change. I don’t want any material. I have it all. I appreciate that. Thanks mom. But now, I want it. Just 4 things that you must do it for me. I’ve done a lot, but your not happy. Ive done a lot but your not appreciate that. I always try to shut my mouth when my mom mad at me. I always try to be perfect even I cant. I always try to smile even I cant smile with you mom. And now, I really really don’t know how to make my mom happy. Ive limit and im tired. If I cry, I don’t want my mom to know it. I always feel that im alone. I don’t have any brother or sister. I dnt want to be alone. But what can I do ? make a new child ? no .and my mom doesn’t know everything. And my mom’ll NEVER know if she never try to understand me.

I want this again . happy family. Without a talkative mom. I love you dad. Really2 love you.

Saturday, 13 December 2008

I write this blog in the Afternoon 5pm. I’ve came home from Pasific Place with my mom, and my sister. When I was in Haagen Dasz, Tewe called me and she said that she arrived there for 20 minutes. So, I waited. But my mom said that she wanted to go to the shoes shop, so, tewe visited me there. Then she met my mom, and have a little ‘talk’ . Tewe lied that she has eaten. Actually , she hasn’t. Hahaha. I said to my mum

Mom : ( I walked ) Knp yang ?
Clara : (whistle) Tewe blm makan loh mi. Dia boong. Haha.
Mom : Loh ko?Kamu ama Tewe gih sana pergi makan jalan.Mami sama cici.
Clara : ooo okeh.
Mom : ( gave me money. And its so WOW . thx teweee its all because of you maaan)


I walked around the mall with tewe. And we’ve eaten at Hot Shots burger. We’ve talked many things. Hadoh its so fun teweeee. And, we went to Times bookstore. I bought 3 books. English. Really, I don’t like book okay ? but my mom told that the-good-things-to-do is READ. Hahaha. I just laughed. Its soooo bored. I hate booksssss !!

Okay I tell you, if I have a little shop day with my mom, we always have a little fight too. Like,,

Mom : La, temenin mami ke toko ini yaaa (something)
Clara : Ga mau ah ke toko dulu donggg ( something )
Mom : kamu kalo ga temenin mami, tar mami ga kasih duit loh
Clara : iya dehhh for you dehhh ayo
Mom : (udah kluar dari tokonya)
Clara : tuh dah kannn. Ke toko aku yaaa
Mom : ga mau ah ke toko kamu mami males.
Clara : (what?) Ah mami ih resee !
Mom : kamu maunya kamu aja. Selfish. Temenin mami dong sekali2. Kamu kan bisa sama temen kamu.
Clara : Tau ah. Mami mah.
Mom : cemberut aja bisanya.


OKEH brantem Cuma gara2 kea gitu doanggg kannn ?? Okey you all know now.
but i love my mom today. She is so WOW. shoppingggg wow wow wow. i love you mom :)

Hey you hello hello . hadoh . today is so fun. twilight again . 3x. hehe . gw baru diajak hari itu kea dadakan. tadinya mau pegi ama caca and marjes. but, the cant soooo ama tasha "_________" haha tasha. terus marcia. tapi marcia ga ikut nonton, karena dia ikut pulang ama mobilny jem 2 atau apalah haha mar. terus apalagi ya . oia, gua membuat suatu keMALUan di bioskop. malu banget hadoh!

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I'm Clara Tania Tjahjadi
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I first met my parents on April. 17. 1994
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